Well, things have been going pretty well for me recently, since I have been back in NJ. I am happy to be back where I belong, I have had a good job with great people, I am close to my family again, which I love, and I have reconnected with friends who I lost touch with.
Even with all of this, I have still felt like something was missing. I have not been able to put my finger on it, and I still have not been able to. But, I think that the events of the recent past will help lead me into the direction in order to find it.
Approximately one month ago my company let go of most of its employees. Luckily I was held on to as one of the remaining loan officers. Even though it was a privilege to be kept on, I also had a hint of survivors guilt and also a voice in the back of my head saying "It is time to move on and find a new job. Things don't look too good here."
All throughout yesterday, at work, there was a certain aura that was going around. Rumors of the company folding, and talk about updating resumes. With all of this going around no one was working. We were all bull shitting and gossiping on what we had heard.
After a while, I was called into the conference room by the center sales manager and his right hand man. I sat there as they started discussing what was going on. They mentioned how things have been difficult with the company and that the two of them, along with a couple other employees, had been offered positions at another company. With that said, they told me that Castle Point would be closing its doors in a matter of two weeks, and that as of right then, I was being let go.
I sat there and talked with the two of them a little longer, explaining plans for the future and realizing to myself that this was probably the best thing that could happen to me.
I walked out to my desk, packed up some things, said fair well to my co workers and walked out of CPM for the last time. Not sad, not upset, not down in the slightest fashion. I felt as if a weight had been lifted off my chest. I felt like the sun was brighter and I was relieved.
I believe that this was the best time that this could happen. I don't know what the next step is for me, but I know it will be the right one. And, with today being my 25th birthday, I think it is the perfect time to make a fresh start and begin the next chapter of my life.
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
Saturday, June 14, 2008
HULK SMASH!!!
Just got back from watching the second great comic book movie to come out in the past couple months, The Incredible Hulk! The first, of course, being Iron Man.
The movie started out with a recap of what has happened, but quickly turns it into a lot of action and amazing CGI. There are several inside jokes, for those who know the comic book. Of course there is a cameo by Stan Lee, there is Stanly's Pizza Place and of course the infamous purple pants that get thrown into a scene.
Edward Norton was definitely the perfect actor for this role. Having been very psychologically distraught in the past in movies such as American History X and Fight Club, he seemed to fit comfortably into the Bruce Banner persona of the constant battle against himself.
Although they could have found a better actress, then Liv Tyler, to play Betty Ross, she was still decent and did not hurt the movie too much.
The ending is definitely another perfect set up for The Avengers movie that will be coming out for sure. So far Iron Man and The Hulk are lined up. The Thor movie is in process, along with Captain America! Rumor is that The Avengers will be forming on the big screen in July of 2011!!! But, until then, check out The Incredible Hulk and Iron Man if you haven't done so already.
Friday, June 13, 2008
Been Stuck In My Head
Ever since I borrowed this CD from "Princess" and copied it onto my MP3, I have been listening to it non stop. Although I have listened to Jason Mraz in the past, I have never really become as hooked as I am on his newest album, "We Sing, We Dance, We Steal Things".
Jason Mraz is a very plain individual, who you would probably just pass in the streets. He is from some bumble-town in VA, but has been involved in music all his life. He started in theater, but quickly began writing music and performing in CA. Thank God he decided to start singing, because he is definitely a talented and blessed individual.
Check out one of his new videos:
By the way, check out the guy with the belly flop at the end! haha
Jason Mraz is a very plain individual, who you would probably just pass in the streets. He is from some bumble-town in VA, but has been involved in music all his life. He started in theater, but quickly began writing music and performing in CA. Thank God he decided to start singing, because he is definitely a talented and blessed individual.
Check out one of his new videos:
By the way, check out the guy with the belly flop at the end! haha
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
What A Fantastic Weekend!!!
Normally my weekends start out pretty slow and dull. It consists of leaving work somewhere between 5 and 6, make my boring ride home, on the way pick up the pizza that my Mom ordered (it's always "Pizza Friday's"), then I sit at home until I find something to do.....which normally means driving all the way back down to Parsippany/Morristown. But, this weekend started out spontaneous and just absolutely amazing!
After dragging my feet around the mall for a little while, and not deciding on anything to get my sister for her birthday I finally decide to leave. On the way back to the house, I decide that I want to grab a bite to eat. After a long while of thinking of what I could eat I think to myself...."You know what I can really go for......some Sheetz!" This is where it gets good!
For any of you poor poor individuals, who do not have the privilege of knowing the taste of a Sheetz MTO sandwich, I pity you! Sheetz is basically a WaWa on major steroids! Open 24 hrs, with unpleasant people working the counters and making mouth watering sandwiches, shmuffins, schmagels, and young dreams come true!
So, I start to head out on 80 West towards Wilkes-Barre, PA (this is the closest one that I know about). With Sheetz on the mind and excitement on my taste buds I race out that way in anticipation. Not only am I going to get some of my fav food ever, but I will see some of my great friends too!
After the 1 1/2 hr trip out to the WB (Wilkes-Barre) I stop at Wal-Mart to grab some necessities for the night. While pulling into the parking lot I look at all the natives of NEPA that are at Wal-Mart on a Friday night at 9:oo P.M. and I tell myself, "God, I love being in NEPA, it makes me feel so much better about myself", haha. After grabbing some clothes to sleep in, toothpaste, toothbrush, shampoo, etc. I head to the self check-out lanes, in hopes that they will be quicker and I can get to Sheetz sooner.
As I are standing on line, in the slow "express" lane, I look to the lane next and just start to laugh. There stands a man in his late 50's/early 60's with long blond hair and a white undershirt that is too tight to fit over his nasty belly and love handles.....it looks like a flesh covered inner tube wrapped around a degenerate hippie. The thing is, is that this is not even the worst part. Right where a "tramp stamp" would me on a girl, this guy had 2 pink lightning bolts on either side, with a red lip stick mark and a huge "B" in the middle with the words "BLOND BITCH" coming from it! HAHAHA.....I couldn't stop laughing. Just before trying to catch this moment on camera, he leaves his line and out of Wal-Mart, but etched into my poor minds forever, haha.
Once I leave that lovely experience at Wal-Mart, I head to the main reason for coming to PA....SHEETZ!!! As if I was there the day before, I walk in and don't break a beat in ordering my sandwich. I receive my sandwich's and head to the next destination....one of my favorite destinations.....my bar, Senuna's.
From the second I crossed the border into PA I had been calling/texting people to let them know of my visitation for the night. Several of my friends met up with us at the bar....Jayme, Jim, Rachael, (who "Princess" had already known...which was weird, but def cool) Kenny, and Kylene and of course Dave, who were both working.
After several drinks, a game of shuffle board, and several hours of catching up with some of my best friends, we all head our separate ways....Jayme and Jim home together, Dave and Ky to finish cleaning the bar for the night, and I head to join Rachael (Carlos's gf) who has offered to let me stay at her place for the night.
Once I wake from a great night of sleep, Rachael and I head over to Carlos', since he did not meet up with us the night before. We get to his place and, as always, he is still sleeping, but wakes enough to tell us about his night of running through one of the State Parks in nothing more than his "birthday suit"....hahaha, nothing surprises me about him, anymore.
On my way back to NJ, I make one last stop at Sheetz again to grab some breakfast sandwich's......God, I love that place!
After dragging my feet around the mall for a little while, and not deciding on anything to get my sister for her birthday I finally decide to leave. On the way back to the house, I decide that I want to grab a bite to eat. After a long while of thinking of what I could eat I think to myself...."You know what I can really go for......some Sheetz!" This is where it gets good!
For any of you poor poor individuals, who do not have the privilege of knowing the taste of a Sheetz MTO sandwich, I pity you! Sheetz is basically a WaWa on major steroids! Open 24 hrs, with unpleasant people working the counters and making mouth watering sandwiches, shmuffins, schmagels, and young dreams come true!
So, I start to head out on 80 West towards Wilkes-Barre, PA (this is the closest one that I know about). With Sheetz on the mind and excitement on my taste buds I race out that way in anticipation. Not only am I going to get some of my fav food ever, but I will see some of my great friends too!
After the 1 1/2 hr trip out to the WB (Wilkes-Barre) I stop at Wal-Mart to grab some necessities for the night. While pulling into the parking lot I look at all the natives of NEPA that are at Wal-Mart on a Friday night at 9:oo P.M. and I tell myself, "God, I love being in NEPA, it makes me feel so much better about myself", haha. After grabbing some clothes to sleep in, toothpaste, toothbrush, shampoo, etc. I head to the self check-out lanes, in hopes that they will be quicker and I can get to Sheetz sooner.
As I are standing on line, in the slow "express" lane, I look to the lane next and just start to laugh. There stands a man in his late 50's/early 60's with long blond hair and a white undershirt that is too tight to fit over his nasty belly and love handles.....it looks like a flesh covered inner tube wrapped around a degenerate hippie. The thing is, is that this is not even the worst part. Right where a "tramp stamp" would me on a girl, this guy had 2 pink lightning bolts on either side, with a red lip stick mark and a huge "B" in the middle with the words "BLOND BITCH" coming from it! HAHAHA.....I couldn't stop laughing. Just before trying to catch this moment on camera, he leaves his line and out of Wal-Mart, but etched into my poor minds forever, haha.
Once I leave that lovely experience at Wal-Mart, I head to the main reason for coming to PA....SHEETZ!!! As if I was there the day before, I walk in and don't break a beat in ordering my sandwich. I receive my sandwich's and head to the next destination....one of my favorite destinations.....my bar, Senuna's.
From the second I crossed the border into PA I had been calling/texting people to let them know of my visitation for the night. Several of my friends met up with us at the bar....Jayme, Jim, Rachael, (who "Princess" had already known...which was weird, but def cool) Kenny, and Kylene and of course Dave, who were both working.
After several drinks, a game of shuffle board, and several hours of catching up with some of my best friends, we all head our separate ways....Jayme and Jim home together, Dave and Ky to finish cleaning the bar for the night, and I head to join Rachael (Carlos's gf) who has offered to let me stay at her place for the night.
Once I wake from a great night of sleep, Rachael and I head over to Carlos', since he did not meet up with us the night before. We get to his place and, as always, he is still sleeping, but wakes enough to tell us about his night of running through one of the State Parks in nothing more than his "birthday suit"....hahaha, nothing surprises me about him, anymore.
On my way back to NJ, I make one last stop at Sheetz again to grab some breakfast sandwich's......God, I love that place!
Tuesday, June 3, 2008
Somethings (stolen from my Rockstar)
Somethings I really like
Beer
Any type of music
Pizza (with the beer)
Good friends who hold great conversations
Golf
Football
Somethings I really dislike
Throwing up (includes those vomit burps.....blah!)
Being late
Going to work everyday
Somethings people don't know about me
I love to draw/scratchboard
I am actually pretty sh
Somethings I like about my friends
Steve's ability to make any situation awkward (dude, you need a filter, haha)
Jacque's love and caring for everyone she comes across
Mira's soft spoken coolness and ability to party hardy just for the hell of it....and being as crazy as I am
Jess's skill at always being able to lighten a moment by making an ass out of herself.....love it!
Anita's freedom and "I don't give a shit" attitude
Carlos's ability to be friends with everyone and help at the drop of a dime
Somethings that instantly make me smile
My Toby!!!
Artwork
Friends
Somethings I hope to be remembered for
Love and caring
Making others smile
Beer
Any type of music
Pizza (with the beer)
Good friends who hold great conversations
Golf
Football
Somethings I really dislike
Throwing up (includes those vomit burps.....blah!)
Being late
Going to work everyday
Somethings people don't know about me
I love to draw/scratchboard
I am actually pretty sh
Somethings I like about my friends
Steve's ability to make any situation awkward (dude, you need a filter, haha)
Jacque's love and caring for everyone she comes across
Mira's soft spoken coolness and ability to party hardy just for the hell of it....and being as crazy as I am
Jess's skill at always being able to lighten a moment by making an ass out of herself.....love it!
Anita's freedom and "I don't give a shit" attitude
Carlos's ability to be friends with everyone and help at the drop of a dime
Somethings that instantly make me smile
My Toby!!!
Artwork
Friends
Somethings I hope to be remembered for
Love and caring
Making others smile
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